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yesterday somebody I know said “guys treasures girls whom are hard to get more”. and I think that it is REALLY STUPID. for my age, seriously, having a boyfriend or not is not important, and the best is not to. but when it comes to this topic, I really hate it when people THINKS that girls whom are hard to get are better. ain’t love about.. LOVE? about the feelings? about how compatible you are, about how comfortable you feel when you’re with that person? it ain’t about “oh you don’t want me, I like you even more”. it’s about “so you like me too, it’s fate!

can’t some people just realize how lucky it is for somebody you really like to like you back? it’s not only about who’s hot and who’s not. it’s about compatibility. as long as that person fulfills your requirement like not too ugly, not too fat, not too skinny and they’re very compatible with you, more like soul mates, then congratulations, you’ve found the one. but if you kept thinking “gosh, she’s so easy to get, cheapo.” then I guess you’re just another sick uncivilized barbarian. can you try to define cheap? easy to get doesn’t mean that they are cheap, because if that one person you like likes you back, I don’t see why there is a need to slow down the whole process and play hard to get. what cheap girls is to me are those who goes clubbing, meeting anonymous and having a one night stand with them after clubbing, more like sleeping with a different guy everyday, which is sick.

I don’t see why so many people go clubbing anyway, it’s all smoky. I hate smokes, it makes me sick, I’m kinda allergic to it. and also, it’s more like a waste of money. going occasionally would be alright, but not often of course.

okay back to the topic. SO some of you think that if that girl is easy to get then she will probably get dumped? if that guy she like only treasure girls that are hard to get then that guy is 100% not suitable for her. because the guy doesn’t love her for her, he just love to have flings. and girls, these type of people is not worth your time at all. don’t any of you agree with me? those guys who like hard-to-get girls are just arseholes who think that they’re the king of the world. like they are worth liking for.the sea is filled with fishes, and arrogant (those who thinks all girls loveee them) ones are just some infected fish. =)

and.. thats me! you won’t believe it, but I actually took a picture of my neighbours lap top, THROUGH my second living room’s window which is directly facing his lap top. as how Baldwin puts it, he said I am SPYING on my neighbour which was actually me walking around and spot something cute. then on that day on (which is 3 days ago till now), when my neighbour is not around and he ons his lap top, I would peep and admire his lap top’s wallpaper. =P so I decided that that is a rude thing and I shall take a picture of it! it may seem psycho but if you see the picture, YOU’LL DEFINITELY LOVE IT TOO! its SO DAMN CUTE.

really

really

damn

freaking

darn

very

very

super

duper

CUTEEEE

define cute : cute means chibi which does not means adorable but ugly but it actually means short and adorable at the same time pretty/handsome. =P. so if somebody tells you you are chibi, he’s/she’s saying you’re short so go kick ‘em. =D

SO CUTE A NOTTT? if you have it, please please PLEASE send it to me aite? @ jamie_liew@hotmail.com thanks!

ps : I bet if you were me you would just do the same thing, other than the taking picture part. =P. I’m damn daring hor. haha.

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I got my “name tag” for being an assistant class monitor yesterday, I asked my teacher which should I wear, my counseling tag or my assistant monitor’s tag, and guess what she said?

she asked me to wear both, so looking like this is quite idiotic isn’t it? T__T.

it’s not quite, it’s very actually.

and the name tag itself is quite stupid. firstly, we work for the class, and yet we still have to BUY this name tag because it’s compulsory, and it costs RM3.50. although not expensive, but come onnnn, we’re HELPING okay, not like we sit one side do nothing, and yet we still got to pay sigh. and the even stupid-er (made another word!!) thing is that they’ve got so much money to build that ugly looking “CLOCK TOWER” which totally don’t look like one, will take a picture of it someday. and bought tonnes of expensive plants to build and made the small flag stage wide into a BIG stage. it costs a lot I know, they are just trying to “brighten” up the environment so that we can study BETTER. some parents donated money to the school hoping to see more facilities and better education and THIS is what they did with the money

they even said that they’d install camera’s EVERYWHERE around the school compound asking around 30 bucks from each student. and one day my even more kepochi friends went and took the cover of the security “camera” and found out it’s just the cover, nothing inside. and they don’t even seem to care of who went into my class and stole everybody’s pens and expensive belongings! sigh, Chia Chia, you’re parents donated 1k for nothing.. they took other peoples money that does things that benefit themselves (other people comes in and say “wah you’re school very beautiful la headmistress” when she used the money and the netball field to build that ugly looking clock tower) .. money suckers. I’d be more greatful if they can use the money to hire BETTER canteen workers.

MY LAST CANTEEN NASI LEMAK WAS SERVED ON A PLATE FILLED WITH DUST! not only that, if you touch it, you will see you’re finger print on it too.

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so just lets move on, I know you’re getting bored.

Sheena made this =P

what does it looks like to you?

a. dog
b. horse
c. donkey
d. camel
e. giraffe

it’s definitely a camel. it’s definitely a camel!

so here’s some obsene pictures of the whatever it is piece of art which is really nice.

it looks damn obscene right! poor camel

Sheena said it’s a giraffe, HA!

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Sheena also did french braids for me today at the counseling room

damn nice I know! <3 it. thanks Sheeenaaaaahhh =P
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just now while we were thinking of what we should do for creating a scrap book out of unwanted things, Sandra was flipping through a calender thinking it might be a good choice to use an old calender. while flipping through, her eagle eyes spotted this!

gila ! everybody in assembly is like singing the Negaraku song slimily (created another word) getting bored of singing it every monday and friday. If you’d ask me to sing Negaraku for just 5 times which is less than 10 minutes, I can tell you, I can’t take it. even singing in a karaoke room for 1 hour makes your vocal chords tired and want to rest. but these people are just too desperate to get that “NAME”. haha.

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moral is stupid. they teach us moral and made us have no moral. thats true. because they made us so mad for memorizing the lame definations word by word until we start flaming. >=(.

tata.

firstly, for some few year older seniors, you might not know what PSK really means. it’s a “NEW” subject which was taken out from our syllables like.. 20 years ago? because of its stupidity and uselessity (I made up that word ><). and NOW, it is BACK in our syllables for students born in year 92 onwards. PSK, Pendidikan Sivik dan Kewargaan MIGHT be one of the subjects in our SPM. WE students are studying without relaxing much for the WHOLE BLOODY YEAR. and YET, they still wanted to include this useless subject. it is a subject that “teaches” us of what responsibilities we carry and what we should do in life. isn’t moral enough for these questions? even agama teaches these. it is just a FREAKING STUPID SUBJECT! all the answers can be easily answered using our common sense but they only wanted the “keywords” which if your answer is rasional but without these keywords you won’t score any marks for it. I’m not sure it’s because of my schools marking skim or what, but nobody got good results for this in my class. firstly, I would like everybody to ask themselves, WHY GO TO SCHOOL? it’s because we want to LEARN right? and I don’t think forcing us to memorize these useless “keywords” which we know using our common sense is useful. like for example, the question asks how are the parents supposed to react when they have another new child other than you. logic answers tells us that the parent should treat both children equally and fair. so yes, we all wrote that. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT IS THE ANSWER? it’s just so freaking stupid. they said that, the parents should earn more money. I wrote, the parents should try to work harder to earn more money, AND I GOT A BIG CROSS TOO! for gods sake, if they wanted us to answer like their answer and there is NOTHING at all regarding to questions like these in the textbook they should have made it objective. NOT subjective. FYI, the textbooks have tonnes of questions and a short 1 to 2 page articles about something that doesn’t show the “keywords” at all. and still they want to include this useless subject in our syllables? are they crazy??

like in other countries, they can choose what to study and doesn’t need to cramp every single thing that benefits or not into their busy brains. in our country, they think that young adults like us are robots and expects us to study every single day for at least 3 hours (minimum for somebody to actually get an A). YET, the teachers that they give to TEACH us are teachers that teaches us so badly that we couldn’t answer anything without tuition, or studying at home the whole day. failing is quite common in our batch. and the ones that fail are so called “FAILURES” by the honourable teacher that used to study stuff so easy back then. everybody knows right? that subjects are getting more and more difficult down the generation. we are all studying like our heads will explode in any second, like it hurts so much that we want to just break everything we can see. what are the governments doing? what is the ministry of education for? aren’t they supposed to give us what we can handle but not trying to fill 10litres of water in a normal cup? education is for KNOWLEDGE, not just to force us to memorize useless stuffs that everyone knows we’re going to forget. especially for history, knowing a bit is okay, but whats with the years memorizing or what are their age is when they get married or what they plant in each state or what are the artifacts called and where it is found, WE DON’T NEED THAT, and we won’t remember that. defination of why we should learn history : we learn it so that we won’t repeat their wrongs. WRONGS? YOU asking us to memorize at what age they got married and what year they are born WRONGS? HECK! do YOU think that we can memorize everything? teachers might be able to do it but not us, and not everybody wants to become an archaeologist. the headmistress and government expects us all to score straight A’s, and companies or colleges only gives students with many A’s scholarship, instead of the poor. try learning how to swim, dance, tennis, hokey, basketball, baseball, football, volleyball, badminton, arts, piano, guitar and violin and be good at EVERY SINGLE ONE OF IT. we are really just ordinary humans, living happily is our main point. shouldn’t we just focus on what we want to be in future and master that particular things?

and I really can’t stand how racist some teachers or headmasters/headmistress’ are. always praising the race that they like, treating them better, giving them tips on exams, and hinting (sometimes even saying it directly out loud which is damn evil) how bad other races is. and especially ones that care for themselves and the image of the school but not the students. I don’t get why using coloured hairbands (although I don’t) affects them or keeping long nails bother them and even some students whom dye their hair into dark brown make them so angry or having fringe that are not poking our eyes POKE theirs. sigh. all for the image, all these school rules are stupid, and not obeying it will get you expelled. EVEN wearing our chinese religious jade Buddha or Kuan Yin inside our clothes just showing a tiny little bit of the plain necklace on our necks make us get demerit points! (getting more points means getting closer to being expelled). if a Malay guy who wants turban, they can, but why not us?! it’s just PURE RACISM!

and if you’re a teacher, teaching some quite not bad classes and still they can’t score, you might need to reconsider on whose fault is it. don’t always blame the students for not listening, because you might need to blame yourself for speaking too soft, know that they’re not listening and yet still leave it (which makes the class noisy and difficult for other students to concentrate), not teaching them how to score and what we need to use to score. especially if you’re not really interested in teaching, please don’t ruin our future leaders.

PS to the unreasonable people : don’t always think that kids/young adults are wrong. want to try being in our shoes? bet you don’t.

okay, I’m finished flaming. toodles.

I totally agree.

found this very interesting article whom should be an understanding parent that understands how difficult studying is. they always want us to achieve good results, yes, those results makes them happy, but the process is rather difficult and yes, I do think that people who holds the book around forcing themselves to study to reach their parents/teachers requirements are actually unhealthy. Some parents do well during their younger days, and expects their children to study all day long, like : no tv, no computer, no playing, go study! yes, academics are rather important, but then please, please don’t waste their one and only precious childhood memory by forcing them to do what benefits you or what you think a kid should do. they’re human too, they can’t just study all day long, they might get mental problems you know?

some teachers/headmasters, actually wants their students to take above 12 subjects, if the student gets straight 15 A’s, they get the glory, the school will be “famous”. if the student is sick and stressed, do you think they might care? so many A’s so what? it’s not like the people with straight but not-so-many-a’s are dumb. and I don’t get it why do some people have to take those subjects that doesn’t relate to what they want to be, they only took it because they want more A’S (which are mainly for bragging). additional subjects to get more credits, it’s okay, but not like more than 12 or 13 subjects. thats insane!

what the school’s usually do? MOST of the teachers aren’t like great, some of them teaches like reading it directly from the text book. extra classes help? then why don’t they teach properly during school hours? they waste our time with all the whatsoever assembly, talking at least 90% of crap. thinking they’re so great and scolds you if your hair is sticking out. DOES IT BOTHER THAT MUCH? another thing is, the sejarah text book is filled with all the stuff that wouldn’t help us in future, it’s more like testing your memorizing skills. all the things written is most likely to be forgotten when we graduate. so called a subject for us so that ” we will not repeat the mistakes of the past “? bullcrap. is memorizing WHAT they do a mistake?

arghh.

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I hate physics. it’s so difficult to understand.

even with tuition.

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a pic I took from that day. free for anybody to use. cheers!

a Fashion Designer.

Why is it that my ambition is something that can hardly help me earn money? It’s just so not fair. You see, if I study really hard and become an engineer and have loads of money but then dislike what I am doing, what’s the point? and if I wanted to become what I wanted to, I don’t need to study much, and also I’ll earn really little. Maybe not even enough to satisfy my own needs. Whats the point too?! I’m sometimes really confused in what I want to be. I want to make money, but I want my job to be linked to what I like too! I’ve always wanted to open a shop, designing all the clothes I like and sell it in a reasonable price. If I’m lucky, in the very first year, I might earn loads. But if I’m not? DEAD, might go bankrupt too. Sigh.. I’m going to be 16 next year and I still don’t know what I want to be.

Money making jobs = boring

Interesting jobs = low pay

Not many people is as lucky as Zang Toi or Jimmy Choo. So.. What I’m choosing now is accountancy. I don’t know if I’d like it or not. But Engineering is totally out of my list. TOTALLY, because I dislike anything to do with science, science to me is the most boring thing ever, science as in Physics and Chemistry. I think Biology might be really interesting. What I really wanted is to be something like Zang Toi, A restaurant and a boutique. A restaurant selling food I love, and behind clothes, shoes, bags that I think is pretty and ALL designed by myself. =P. But that’s only a dream, will most likely not happen. But being ambitious is a good thing right? right?

Sometimes I really needed the right advice of what I should take up before it’s too late. I don’t know what is my real interest and what I’m good at. Sad thing.

does anybody reading this post ever felt how an outcast felt? made friends with them, treated them like a normal person or did you look down on them, bullied them, talked bad about them, treating them like they knew nothing at all.

I, admit that I was an outcast, a horrible one with my hair all sticking up like I just got some electric shot or something. Since I’m 5 till I’m 10-12. nobody really talked to me, they never really treated me as their good friend. I had no best friends. My so called ” best friends ” are friends who treated me just like a normal friend because I had barely any friends. The feeling of getting rejected by people around you *other than family* is really something that not everybody get to experience. I remember people took me like a dumb kid who knows nothing and who is so stupid because I’m in a B class and I’m still getting the last place. Sometimes, people even forget who I am because I was almost transparent. I was bullied by some mean students sometimes too. Being slow minded is really something bad.

I noticed I’m not that slow minded when I’m 11. and that is when I know that tuition is important to me. I couldn’t speak a word of english before I’m 8. I attended drama class and everybody there speaks english so fluently that it made me pick up my english quite fast. I was never good in malay, even until now, I’m not as good as the others, but at least I can understand most of the words and I could write and even speak some normal conversations without thinking for a few minutes. People often reject people who are usually bad in studies and those stupid looking ones. why? I just don’t get it sometimes. Is it just normal? I studied really hard when I’m 11 and just in a few months, from the last place I jumped to top 5. and was transferred to A class in standard 6. Although I’m the weakest in A class, but I felt a lot better because more people wanted to be friends with me. I suddenly felt that I was not that useless after all.

Even that I’m quite lazy to study and I cannot get better than most of my classmates but I’m really glad, just because I’m finally noticed. When I stepped into form 1, it is when I finally thought my life began. I don’t remember quite anything of my primary life but my 5 year old one. It just flashes in my mind at times when I think about it, and it just won’t go away. I tend to remember the scariest stuffs that had happened more than the happy ones, or maybe there isn’t any happy ones. Until now, I didn’t like to feel how I felt before this, all unwanted by the society. Even how hard I try to make people like me, I can’t make everybody like me. Because humans have negative points. I am just glad that I actually have readers reading my boring blog. And that I’m glad to have made so many good friends in my secondary life. I’m starting to love myself. =).