hello all!

fuh.

gosh wasn’t it a busy week. I guess like everyone else, I was busy visiting/having open houses! and I have the hugest family ever. there were around 50 people in my house last week and it was crazy. but like every year, we had fun chatting, catching up and so on. well, my cousins all love to gamble except.. me. I’ve never gambled before. it’s true.

there’s something about the genes of my mom’s side. my mom once won some kind of beauty peagant and my sister got her looks eventhough not as pretty hahaha. well, ALL MY COUSINS ARE PRETTY. I might be the tallest among everyone but it’s such a shame whenever I see my cousins I automatically felt like I’ve degraded to the group of ugly ducklings. but I choose to believe that I look unique since I don’t look similar with any of them T_T. PFFT.

and yes, maybe it’s time to cut my hair. but because they say it’s bad to cut your hair during CNY as it’ll cut away all your good luck, I can only cut my hair after CNY. =S. still deciding on the length! but it’s really hard to let go of my precious long hair. sigh.

well, I can always tie it up like this. hahaha. except it makes me look fat.

there was this time I remembered it was my first time tying all my hair back in college and a few teachers asked if I gained weight T______________T. fml.

whatever it is. I’M CUTTING MY HAIR!

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PS : I think it’s time to tell everyone about this. especially those who likes reading about the events I attend to in Malaysia. I’ve slowed down in attending events, it’s true. but soon.. you’ll see none. because I’ve decided to further my studies overseas. it’s not like I am shutting down my blog/abandoning it. but the perks of it is that I will be blogging about the happenings there and a WHOLE LOT of cultural and travel posts! I’m leaving in a month+ but let’s make my last month here worthwhile and to all of you who wants to see me before I leave (because I am leaving for at least a year *or half a year. but highly unlikely* without coming back) please drop me a message! it’s a great opportunity to see which of you still care nyahahahaha.

PSS : will be attending Yonsei University in Seoul. so do visit!

I’m not sure if it’s because I have been out of it for so long until I became immune without love. not family love, but you know which type of love I mean. but it is only when love come knocking on your door and you try to avoid it, you’d wonder if you’d regret it. the number of what ifs will pop out in your brain. what if I finally receive love, will I be happier? what if I have somebody, will I get pampered? but so far I’m pretty satisfied with the decisions I’ve made. and I’ve never regretted. they say, “you’re missing out”. but I felt that it’s never too late to date when you’re older. why rush things? just for the fun of it? well, in my opinion, when you meet the right one, no matter how you want to avoid it, it’ll still come. and especially meeting somebody as a teenager, the possibility of it surviving is less than 1%. I have friends who’ve been together since they were 14 and is now happily married. but they are probably the only few out the perhaps 2 thousand people I know.

“you’re too picky”, my best friend said. he has his point on which I’d completely cross out every single guy who is shorter than me with heels and also that I expect so much from a guy from the way he must know how to dress to how he must know how to respect the elderly and treat his friends with awesome manners. not to mention I would never kiss a guy who smokes. but sometimes, it’s not that I am being picky, it is that I’ve set my priorities in life. and love, perhaps isn’t in the top 3. before I could accomplish the top 3 until a certain level, I don’t think I would be able to concentrate on love. of course I’d have crushes here and there, but with my pride, confessing isn’t my thing, and getting over a small crush is probably the easiest thing for me to do.

the thing is, I might sometimes be lovesick when I have a pair of lovebirds right in front of my eyes. but each time I’d say to myself “DON’T BE DISTRACTED”. people tell me to try around to find the right one. but what if I already felt that they wouldn’t be right. I’ll just be wasting my time. and my market value might go down *face palm*. would you date a girl with more than 5 ex’s or a girl with maybe less than 3 ex’s? maybe you’d think she’s inexperienced but then at least she’s a rare one. I sometimes do find my mentality a bit weird. I am often misunderstood. my words are always twisted and wrongly analysed. maybe it might be the way I say things or maybe I just explain things vaguely but the truth is I myself feel that I am actually pretty pure. pfft. I don’t even understand dirty jokes. I don’t laugh watching Russel Peters but I laugh when I watch dramas or when I speak normally to my friends just because I am happy like that pfft. just joking. it is because I am naturally lame and I laugh at myself. it’s true. I am so lame sometimes my friends get embarrassed or they will simply just wanna choke me. it’s really true.

back to the topic. the next thing is how some people can not live without love. and I felt these are the people who loves to be loved. they feel like they have an umbrella when it’s raining or when it’s too hot. I have a sibling like that, so sometimes I try to understand. she would ask me to date probably every single guy I tell her about. but through my thorough analysing, I’d always go with the same old answer– NO. and she’d say I’m stupid for not saying yes. I’m so bad that sometimes even my mom would say that I’m stupid. maybe my mom is too afraid that I’ll turn into a spinster/lesbian. okay I kid. I remembered my first true boyfriend was such a perfect candidate to my mom that she didn’t mind that I was dating at the age of 13. and when we broke up she told me I’m stupid for dumping such a good kid. either I have a cool mom, or that we’re equally weird. weird mom and hence a weird daughter. hmm. and sometimes I felt like I’m Benjamin Button. my interest in love fades when it’s supposed to hit it’s peak, and I was so interested in it when I’m not supposed to be. oh wait, I think all kids are into it at 13. I remembered how I met this canadian who was so shock that I dated this late when he told me a normal canadian would lose his or her virginity at 11. HECK ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I still find it hard to believe. I guess it might be just his horny neighbourhood. girls at 11 years old don’t even have boobs. (errrr. except Saaya Irie. she must’ve eaten a lot of F cup cookie. I bought it for my sister when I went to Japan since it’s a lot cheaper there and apparently it works!). I wonder if they even have their eostrogens developed. more likely that they want to experience how it’s like to grow up. but seriously, that. is. sick. PFFT.

why am I always off topic. nevermind. let me tell you a little about my opinion on what love is about. okay, minus the minimum requirements and all, which for me, is only the height and probably not twice my weight; I think the perfect guy would be somebody who can make you happy. somebody who is really compatible with you. you might not need to talk to him or see him 24/7 but you’re happy as long as you know you have him. seriously, if you care too much on how they look, how rich they are or how many A’s they scored, you’d end up like me. “if he’s not as handsome as what you would like your other half to be, he isn’t perfect. if he’s very handsome, he’ll probably cheat on you. if he’s too poor, he can’t buy you meals, if he’s too rich, he’s a spoilt bastard. if he’s dumber than you, you lose face, if he’s very smart, he’s boring”. yes girls are difficult. that is why girls, you shouldn’t care so much. as long as they are not too excessive in both sides, I honestly feel that it’s all right. after all, the purpose of live is to live with a true smile on your face. but of course, PRIORITIZE. don’t tell me your dream is to get married and lead a happy life with your already successful husband and live happily ever after. that’s bullshit in this century. and probably the worst dream. he’ll probably cheat on you when you start to look old. so you need insurance, and the insurance is to succeed for yourself in case that happens. if it doesn’t happen, it’s your luck. and if it DOES happen.. don’t blame yourself for being unlucky PFFT.

and my dreams? I don’t know if I actually have one, or can my dreams be even considered as one. whenever I tell people about my plans; my dreams. they’d think its stupid, it’s just another girls fantasy. that I’ll never succeed in it and that it’s impossible for me in my situation. but afterall, they are dreams no? however hard it may seem, I believe if you really want it, nothing can stop you.

hello. it has been a week. recently, I’ve been rather inactive in many events and so on. sometimes I think it’s because I am lazy but on the other hand, I know that it is the right thing to do. have you ever considered about the priorities in life? what are they? which of the priorities are more important?

well, a week ago, I left for Penang and later Camerons for a one week holiday and that had really gave me a lot of time to rest and think. Initially, I didn’t want to go, but I thought to myself, what’s more important than spending some precious time with your family? it’s true indeed. the smile on my grandma’s face for seeing me straight for a week was something nothing can buy. and what I would like to say is, spend some time with your old folks at home. your mom, your dad, your grandparents. give them some time. friends are not more important than them. no matter how selfish you think they are, reflect on how you had acted and think again.

in the past week, the thoughts of what I want to do, what are the choices I should make, how to achieve what I want and most importantly, how to improve have been filling me up. with deep thoughts, today onwards, I really want to start anew. there are so much I want to do, but it is just that some things are difficult. and it might even sound nearly impossible. but in my opinion, I’ll try all I can to reach for it. because the goal in my life is to be happy in whatever I do, and I believe even a very tensed process would be enjoyable. try giving it a try to think thoroughly, and of course, not everybody would think the same, but really, as long as it makes you happy =).

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AHHHHHHH I GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT AND I GOT SO TAN FROM PENANG! all the sleep, eat, sleep, eat has turned me into a glutton. wait, I was already a glutton. what am I talking about?!

it is so hard to believe. I turned 19. it’s like, way over sweet 16. T_T. I sound old now. I don’t understand how can I still feel so young and childish. I really need to grow! even though I don’t know how will I eventually grow hahahaha.

besides, it’s my last year of being a teenager T_T. oh my.

this is my Opera cake. Opera cakes are awesome. they taste fantastic! looks fantastic as well!

my sister went to fetch my cake and she only took.. one candle. either she’s insulting me that I’m way too old to show my age or.. I am just 1/10 years old. pfft. so my mom digged al the extra candles (though all in different HUGE sizes) and ALSO because the cake’s surface is.. pretty much of a slab of thick chocolate, the candles would ruin the cake. so we stuck it outside. so, there’s 9 candles in various shapes OUTSIDE the cake.

weird enough? matches my weird child theme.

I am imitating my angry bird. can’t you see? my angry face?

it’s so funny when my guy friend said “HEY! LOOK AT MAH ANGRY BIRD!” ehehehehe. =P.

I told everybody to dress like a little kid, and if they find it too difficult then dress weirdly. haha. most of them weren’t even weird! PFFT.

but at least these two best buds of mine were super sporting. they did accordingly! tsk tsk very touched <3.

THUMBS UP FOR MY BIRTHDAY! coughs. see? most of them aren’t following the theme!

I was really touched that Mandy (and her BF) prepared a few pieces for me T_T. it’s the first time somebody actually performed for me U_U. I’m so touched T_T. and that is my touched face. you know that is the true touched face. those on dramas look sad!

Jonathan, Mandy, Xiang and William

Bryanlyt and Jason/Smashpop. =D. awww. they came again! these two. are my really really old blogosphere friends. one of the first few I met when I started blogging. and they are so famous pfft. look for their links on the left side <<

and if you already know me. you might as well know that I am very.. weird. my expressions are practically what you’d see in your comic books. and of course, I hang out with people equally as weird.

but I’ve always felt as if I were the weirdest. because I am like that everywhere I go. o__0..

the heroes. only 3 of us in the middle lah! =D. because we are hero enough to dress like that WAHAHHAAHA. Darren’s jacket and sunglasses was my idea. and he made it even better when he wore his sports shirt in it. AWESOME!!!!!

I haz a beak too.

he haz a ribbon on hiz hair too. AWW!

OH MY FACE!

I wasn’t even tipsy that day. just.. maybe high on sugar. teehee.

and I have 50 camwhore pictures with Christine. it’s mad. =P.

thank you all for coming <3. I appreciate it. A LOT! and oh! if you were wondering why this year’s one is so.. tiny. well, almost half couldn’t come because of mothers day and I knew that would happen haha.

also, there are so many people I want to thank T_T. nobody was actually free on 9th itself. mainly because it’s a Monday. I thought I was going to rot at home. alone.

until the day before, Lam Sem asked me if I would like to go for lunch! =D! YES PLEASE! a few days ago he told me about this korean sashimi restaurant and I got SO CURIOUS because I’ve never had sashimi in a korean restaurant before D=. so we went there for my birthday! =D. it was awesome. I hadn’t meet him for a long while and there were so many things to catch up on. we met because of o2jam(a game) and he’s my in-game husband wahahahha.

the restaurant is located at Ampang’s Korean village. same row as Lotte Mart. right at the end. that one with red bricks.

and for dinner, these 3 best friends, Ginny, Vivien and Natalie were there to accompany me through my 19th U_U. *touched*. it was a fun girls day out =D =D. talked and laughed the whole night! I think this year’s birthday pretty much pawned every other year. =3.

their gift to me! <3. AWWWWWWWWW. it was so cute the waitress got so interested on where it is bought and how it tastes like. it tastes really good in my opinion. usually cupcakes are only nice to see. but these wondermilk cupcakes tastes wonderful, just like the name =D.

and Natalie and Viviens sang so loud both me and Ginny got shy! but it was so fun, I have to admit. <3!!!!

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painin is where you visit somebody’s home on the Chinese New Year period to gamble, chit chat and get angpows *if you’re single that is. I especially love this season — even if I don’t gamble and had to play angry birds at the corner of the house. okay, it’s not that bad, I actually love the fact that many people gather together after such a long time and actually have fun together. sometimes, it isn’t the angpow that matters, it’s how friends and family who had not meet for such a long time actually making an effort to gather together.

some busy people might think, ah.. it’s so troublesome, it is JUST another week anyway. but what’s different? you’d have to experience it to understand ba.

I just felt, everyone should at least get together on CNY. especially close friends and families. =).

barely even all the females on my mother’s side. we would need two school bus if we were to ever travel on a field trip together!

yes I know, my hair is totally dominating the entire picture PFFT. didn’t have time to cut it before CNY and now I cannot cut it until CNY is over. CNY taboo. haha.

just to name a few superstitions of CNY’s DON’Ts :
- cut your hair
- cut your nails (fml my nail broke vertically and I still don’t dare to cut it!)
- sweep the floor (esp on 1st day)
- say anything bad
- buy shoes (because shoes in cantonese is HAI which sounds very much like sighing)

the rabbit gesture he is doing for this rabbit year! =D. and that’s a mandarin orange I am holding!

currently the only kawan baik who came to visit me. such a good friend Jeremy is. *wipes tears*.

the people I love hanging out with.

tsk tsk tsk everybody’s so busy nowadays and this is like the first time we gathered together this year. which gives an extra reason on why we need CNY! heh.

who’s having an open house soon? =D.

anyeonghaseyo. welcome to my blog-yo. I love Korea-yo. since adding a -yo means being polite in Korean =D.

I am so crazy I am actually counting down. in lesser than 3 months!

just so you know, I am not rich or whatsoever. because I bought the tickets on this really special promo. =D. and I will be staying at a budget place. no posh posh hotels =(. but that already satisfies me. it’s been 10 years. =3.

you might be among the fortunate group to have visit Korea already, and you’d think it’s nothing much. but I’ve wanted to go there since I’d watched Autumn in My Heart at 8. and is keen on visiting it first time on Autumn =X. November is an Autumn month! =D. AirAsia’s quite smart, they only have promo for autumn on November. pfft. and it was a very last minute thing because I only had a day to think if I could go. I spent hours on the net trying to persuade my friends to go with me (because my mom wouldn’t allow me going alone without a proper adult. EVEN I have friends there.) and well, when the tickets came out, my mom shocked herself by looking at the crazily cheap fare and said “ok lah, I’ll go with you.”

=D =D =D =D =D.

normally such cheap fares only comes out once in a blue moon. and this promo is because they are launching flights to Korea for the first time!

AirAsia made my dream possible. WHEE! <3. by the way, the statement above, is for TWO. and TWO ways.

will be going there for 6 days. I only had a week worth of holiday =(. and to prevent myself from splurging more, I booked 6 days only T_T. if I were to go on my own, I was planning on 2 weeks. skip a week of college, I don’t care. =D. yes you might say that I am lucky and all but please bare in mind that these type of “luck” only comes in when you check their site every freaking hour hahaha. and to make a last minute planning, it was pretty alright. 6 days wouldn’t be enough but I’m trying to cram 35 destination into 6 days.

call me mad, but I’ve even completed my itenary.

Day 1 – will arrive in the evening, shall walk around and explore Myeong Dong at night.
Day 2 – 63 Building and that area, Gangnam and later on meeting up with my Korean friends for Lotte World (wanted Everland but I heard many rides might close if the weather is too cold.)
Day 3 – Bongeunsa Temple, COEX mall + its Aquarium, Hongdae for coffee shops (SCREW MY ALLERGY! I shall find a way to overcome it! medication or something =/. did you know, most coffee shops in Korea are UNIQUE in their own way? =D.), Rainbow Fountain.
Day 4 – Hanoks, Insadong, Gyeongbokgung + all the other gungs + Cheong Wa Dae (Korean white house. except its BLUE.), samcheongdong. all walking distance.
Day 5 – Gwanjang Market, Edae, Deoksugung, City Plaza, Seoul Museum of Art (I’m an art student anyway, how can I go to a land of art without entering their museum?!), Dongdaemun Market (opens till 5am! =D)
Day 6 – Namsan, Myeong Dong

bare in mind that one spot have several destinations. they are all in walking distance! plus, my itenary isn’t full yet. =3. was thinking of visiting their noraebang(korean karaoke) and their jjimjilbang(sauna with practically EVERYTHING) too. sigh, unlike noraebangs in Msia, their’s look much more fun, plus, they charge per room. so if you have more people, your per person price will drop heh.

no visa is needed for such a short visit. =3. (and Japan’s one is soooo troublesome. needs letters and bank slips. it’s pretty difficult for a student to travel there alone. but couldn’t be helped. I heard many fellow Msians ‘jump plane’ there. haha.)

I was pestering my mom to buy those lonely planet books for Seoul as she’d go against her stingy self to buy it the last time we visited China and HK. it costs about rm88? =X. super expensive ugh. but she said there’s nothing about Korea that I don’t know, and we don’t need it. PFFTTT. >=(. so if anyone has it, pinjam boleh? =3 I take good care of books. plus, I do wrapping services, for FREE! =D!

I am a crazy girl. I’ve been preparing for the past one month already. like how my friend who is obsessed with Japan took 4 months to prepare his, which turned out perfect, I wanted to do the same =D.

PS : my mom had some very bad experience in Seoul and had never liked it since then. but I am slowly brainwashing her. >=). and she’s only going because I am so eager to go T______T. I told her ” you saved up on my college fees because of the full scholarship, and this trip will worth only one sem’s fees!” it’s unreasonably reasonable! =).

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some test shots of YeeCow’s Canon 5D + his 28mm f/2.8

it’s awesome.

but he called me an idiot yesterday because he lent me his camera because mine have some sort of problem. but he only noticed that it’s because of some silly setting I made, and my camera doesn’t need to be sent into the hospital >_<”.

so here’s some test shots =D. some of them are for my Photography assignment.

haha, noticed how biased I am? most of my make up products are from faceshop– a korean brand. =D. one from missha– another korean brand. and one each from etthusais and maybeline.

well, the faceshop is really cheap when there’s sale =/. couldn’t help it.

the black background’s only sugar paper! it does WONDERS. and there was no special lighting. it was home light.

the pair of heels I wear frequently nowadays.

the pictures were taken in RAW and only the colour temperature and the black intensity was adjusted. =). but it was only slight adjustments.

this is how I look when I go to college. Jeremy said I look like some ghost hmm. he’s being pretty honest hahha.

lets hope you don’t get nightmares from this picture taken in the morning.

I woke up early today and wanted to try camwhoring with a 28mm =D. a bit close, but at least it works!

+ the sunlight help in bluffing my skin HAHA.