anyeonghaseyo. welcome to my blog-yo. I love Korea-yo. since adding a -yo means being polite in Korean =D.

I am so crazy I am actually counting down. in lesser than 3 months!

just so you know, I am not rich or whatsoever. because I bought the tickets on this really special promo. =D. and I will be staying at a budget place. no posh posh hotels =(. but that already satisfies me. it’s been 10 years. =3.

you might be among the fortunate group to have visit Korea already, and you’d think it’s nothing much. but I’ve wanted to go there since I’d watched Autumn in My Heart at 8. and is keen on visiting it first time on Autumn =X. November is an Autumn month! =D. AirAsia’s quite smart, they only have promo for autumn on November. pfft. and it was a very last minute thing because I only had a day to think if I could go. I spent hours on the net trying to persuade my friends to go with me (because my mom wouldn’t allow me going alone without a proper adult. EVEN I have friends there.) and well, when the tickets came out, my mom shocked herself by looking at the crazily cheap fare and said “ok lah, I’ll go with you.”

=D =D =D =D =D.

normally such cheap fares only comes out once in a blue moon. and this promo is because they are launching flights to Korea for the first time!

AirAsia made my dream possible. WHEE! <3. by the way, the statement above, is for TWO. and TWO ways.

will be going there for 6 days. I only had a week worth of holiday =(. and to prevent myself from splurging more, I booked 6 days only T_T. if I were to go on my own, I was planning on 2 weeks. skip a week of college, I don’t care. =D. yes you might say that I am lucky and all but please bare in mind that these type of “luck” only comes in when you check their site every freaking hour hahaha. and to make a last minute planning, it was pretty alright. 6 days wouldn’t be enough but I’m trying to cram 35 destination into 6 days.

call me mad, but I’ve even completed my itenary.

Day 1 – will arrive in the evening, shall walk around and explore Myeong Dong at night.
Day 2 – 63 Building and that area, Gangnam and later on meeting up with my Korean friends for Lotte World (wanted Everland but I heard many rides might close if the weather is too cold.)
Day 3 – Bongeunsa Temple, COEX mall + its Aquarium, Hongdae for coffee shops (SCREW MY ALLERGY! I shall find a way to overcome it! medication or something =/. did you know, most coffee shops in Korea are UNIQUE in their own way? =D.), Rainbow Fountain.
Day 4 – Hanoks, Insadong, Gyeongbokgung + all the other gungs + Cheong Wa Dae (Korean white house. except its BLUE.), samcheongdong. all walking distance.
Day 5 – Gwanjang Market, Edae, Deoksugung, City Plaza, Seoul Museum of Art (I’m an art student anyway, how can I go to a land of art without entering their museum?!), Dongdaemun Market (opens till 5am! =D)
Day 6 – Namsan, Myeong Dong

bare in mind that one spot have several destinations. they are all in walking distance! plus, my itenary isn’t full yet. =3. was thinking of visiting their noraebang(korean karaoke) and their jjimjilbang(sauna with practically EVERYTHING) too. sigh, unlike noraebangs in Msia, their’s look much more fun, plus, they charge per room. so if you have more people, your per person price will drop heh.

no visa is needed for such a short visit. =3. (and Japan’s one is soooo troublesome. needs letters and bank slips. it’s pretty difficult for a student to travel there alone. but couldn’t be helped. I heard many fellow Msians ‘jump plane’ there. haha.)

I was pestering my mom to buy those lonely planet books for Seoul as she’d go against her stingy self to buy it the last time we visited China and HK. it costs about rm88? =X. super expensive ugh. but she said there’s nothing about Korea that I don’t know, and we don’t need it. PFFTTT. >=(. so if anyone has it, pinjam boleh? =3 I take good care of books. plus, I do wrapping services, for FREE! =D!

I am a crazy girl. I’ve been preparing for the past one month already. like how my friend who is obsessed with Japan took 4 months to prepare his, which turned out perfect, I wanted to do the same =D.

PS : my mom had some very bad experience in Seoul and had never liked it since then. but I am slowly brainwashing her. >=). and she’s only going because I am so eager to go T______T. I told her ” you saved up on my college fees because of the full scholarship, and this trip will worth only one sem’s fees!” it’s unreasonably reasonable! =).

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some test shots of YeeCow’s Canon 5D + his 28mm f/2.8

it’s awesome.

but he called me an idiot yesterday because he lent me his camera because mine have some sort of problem. but he only noticed that it’s because of some silly setting I made, and my camera doesn’t need to be sent into the hospital >_<”.

so here’s some test shots =D. some of them are for my Photography assignment.

haha, noticed how biased I am? most of my make up products are from faceshop– a korean brand. =D. one from missha– another korean brand. and one each from etthusais and maybeline.

well, the faceshop is really cheap when there’s sale =/. couldn’t help it.

the black background’s only sugar paper! it does WONDERS. and there was no special lighting. it was home light.

the pair of heels I wear frequently nowadays.

the pictures were taken in RAW and only the colour temperature and the black intensity was adjusted. =). but it was only slight adjustments.

this is how I look when I go to college. Jeremy said I look like some ghost hmm. he’s being pretty honest hahha.

lets hope you don’t get nightmares from this picture taken in the morning.

I woke up early today and wanted to try camwhoring with a 28mm =D. a bit close, but at least it works!

+ the sunlight help in bluffing my skin HAHA.

it isn’t a feeling that I am currently having, but it was, some time ago, and I just felt like sharing it. have you ever felt the feeling of being betrayed, mistreated, blamed and treated unfairly? well I had.

those feelings were so bad, they hurt more than when my dear dog died. in other words, they were almost suicidal. and inconsiderate people would not even know. they do their best to make you miserable, hated by others. they would lie, twist words, spread things untrue. of course, I had experienced it both ways; being the victim, and the bad person.

lets talk about being the bad person. I was about 13-14, I would talk about gossips that people tell me to other people just because I wanted to have more topics to talk about at the stage of wanting to have more friends, and that is because I didn’t know how it felt. but soon I came to realize that it isn’t something I should be bothered about. but I wasn’t as bad, because I did not CREATE them untrue fact, I heard them. but I was wrong, one shall never judge. it is normal to dislike somebody, but those who takes them seriously, are real cowards.

some people, in my opinion, people who wanted more attention, would create something new to attract people’s attention with some surreal, selfish story out of jealousy that they might not even know: and the bad part is, people actually believes in them. you might not even know these people whom created them, but they are definitely the devils behind your back. needless to say, everybody assume they are right. when friends tries to back you up, nothing will change because in their tiny black heart, they assume that you went for pity.

to deal with it? easy. just do not care about them. friends come and go, and if your friend doesn’t see the true beauty inside of you. they are just not worthy enough. but on the other hand, for those who are dealing with those situations for the first time, you might consider talking to somebody about it. I was once so angry I wanted to do something really bad, I wanted to expel that person from school. it is possible. once I read from a magazine that some people were accused of being who they are not so horribly, they suicided. and in the book, it’s written that by law, it’s somehow illegal, even if you’re a kid.

I have not dealt with such issues for a very long time, but I heard that in many colleges and companies, problems as such still exist. and if you’re involved, just stay calm and ignore. do not run away from it, but face it. nobody is perfect and people with least humanity would pick on your bad side, and most of the time, exaggerate them.

you know what’s next. PENANG! xD.

*points* my hair is BROWNISH! pfft. so much for dyeing such a light colour. sigh. they said the only way to dye my hair is to BLEACH it.

NO!

did you know the new cheat for the Sims 3? hold shift+ctrl+c and type in motherlode and 50k there you go! but the unfortunate thing is that my desktop computer doesn’t have a graphic card. I NEED ONE. T_T.

before I forget. HAPPY ZHONG DAY! as in the triangle thingy with rice inside it. I think it is called the gluttonous rice dumpling? anyway, I love those yellow ones to go with kaya. I hear FATS.

I saw one of the most beautiful things that had ever happened in front of me. and I saw it during my homestay at Malacca. will post more pictures of it later when I am more freeeeee. had 6 extra assignments just for Monday. great? editing the whole post will be a pain at the moment. will get it done in a week or so! =D.

nothing is more beautiful than the birth of a new life. it tried to stand up but couldn’t; having parallel holes on the floor only makes it worst. its mother with love, slowly bites of the placenta layer of her baby, licking its body and caring for it. it’s so sweet T_T. but one thing. goats give birth like as if they felt no pain. hmm? it doesn’t yell. at least the baby makes noise.

this is the last part of our homestay where it was burning hot and most people just run into the bus. but also, me, David, James and Tian Chad ran over to the opposite side where there was this beautiful kampung house and took some pictures. =D. yays? hehe.

so much for a photograph, now I am two shades tanner. T___T.

and also, I would like to talk about how imperfect we are. really, nobody is perfect. one might think being imperfect physically is OK white mentally isn’t. they expect some other people to do stuff and give a respond that sounds normal to them. but without the flaws, where does a good sense of humour, or even a person’s attitude come? sometimes people say the wrong things, think differently (eg. childish thinking), and you hate it. but the thing is, you do that too, you make the mistakes but sometimes you couldn’t see it because nobody tells you. and vice versa, they do not know it because they are unaware and it doesn’t help by disliking them. you’d just feel even more tensed because you’re hating somebody. I’ve come to learn this fact recently when I felt drama’s going around my college mates and also among some people that I know. not like I am involved, since I am the alien whom people communicate to me like as if they were speaking korean to me, but the whole disliking thing is really too much. for me, I would only dislike a person or HATE somebody if that person does a direct damage towards me. like creating stories of me for an example. I wouldn’t dislike people who passes on the message because it is just their friend’s they trust. likewise, I felt that sometimes we need to take some time to think about it, to think whether it is worth it to even treat somebody badly. I was just wondering, why can’t people look at the better side of people. if they aren’t any gangster or somebody who is most likely to be the rapist/thief/abuser in your circle of friends, it’s alright. if you dislike a person you can just ignore them. you don;t have to SHOW it out. it only brings sorrow to the mood.

(I have to admit I have a face problem with people who dresses up like a complete lala. also with those who looks horny. and even with those who aren’t friendly.)

but coming to think of it, perhaps we can change our thinking as much as we can because that leads to being happy! =D.

PS : I was also influenced by Andrew Matthews’ book called “Being a Happy Teenager”. very helpful.

PSS : SEX AND THE CITY 2 WAS AWESOME. it’s a perfect blend of fashion and humour. =D. also, if you’re sensitive on racial issues then I would suggest you not to watch. the part where they talk about the Abu Dhabi people is a little errr, offensive to the conservative people in my opinion.

okay, what happened was, I found a speedlight on the top of my dad’s cabinet where he kept all his gears (which I have long forgotten he even have them). I was looking for an analogue camera to play with and I found 4. apparently only 2 could be used now, the other two’s type of film went extinct T_T. and lucky the one still can be used are the SLR’s. I am glad that the speedlight could be used on my camera, but, only by using manual. I tested it with my friends 450D. and auto could be used on his. and I tested his on mine, it works perfectly. WHY LAH MY OWN ONE CANNOT USE AUTO T_T. nevermind, I shall learn the art of manual, since I only use manual on my DSLR anyways despite having auto focus.

my first camwhore with the new old flash! HAPPINESS. my go to college look. I look very childish still! HAH? =X.

the flash I found! apparently it is not bad. really! but the most disgusting part was the rubber/plastic on the side. it was all moldy and waxy. apparently my mom said old rubber are like that. Mm. I couldn’t stand it so I ripped it off. leaving it empty.. for a bit. until my future graphic designer self pop out and gave me a brilliant idea!! *coughs* just joking about that.

TADAA. my untouched Swarovski Crystals bought from Singapore… 2 years ago.

but finally in use! =D.

black’s not Swarovski though.

TADA! I turn this supposingly to be very cool and manly gadget feminine and young! COUGHS. guys must be cursing me now. but I have no choice! where to find another rubbery round thing lah!

I am now a graphic design student taking foundation in arts and design. super hectic as there are assignments EVERY SINGLE DAY. T____T. I reckon that I am pretty pitiful because I am still sick and I still need to go to college. =X. but I am much better now, though still coughing a lot. sigh.

for those who are still blur and still thinking that I am actually still posting scheduled posts : no I am not. I am permanently back from National Service =D. and no they won’t send you home for being sick. they’d take you to the hospital and get you treated. but the thing was, I was pretty unlucky, the hospital failed to cure me.

so what happened was like this, I was sick the second day being in the camp. high high fever. then I drank that miraculous body cooling drink my grandma gave me and went to the hospital (takes 20mins to get out of the jungle and another 10 to reach the hospital!) and my fever cooled down and I was just having slight fever at the hospital. so the doctor didn’t even give me antibiotic. and then, it got worst. drinking those cough medicine and all made me completely drowsy, unable to even get out of bed. they had food sent to me on the eating times (6 times a day FUHH) but that only lasted for 1 day. because the doctor didn’t give me an MC. which is dumb because I was feeling so sick.

then, the next day, I was required to get out of bed and try my best to march. but they were nice they let me sit down. was like that for 5 days. went to their mini clinic everyday. I am not sure why I couldn’t get well. maybe it is because of the cold water I used to bathe (which got my whole body filled with rashes later on. their water is YELLOWISH T_T.) or it is because I simply couldn’t get enough rest. we usually go to sleep at around 11.30 and wake up at 530. 6 hours of sleep. not very sufficient for a sick girl.

the teachers tried their best to help I could see but no matter what my parents or doctor wrote, I couldn’t come back. so my parents got really worried about my situation (being sick and worst every day for more than 6 days is crazily abnormal) so they got my college enrollment done and fetched me right away. but when I am back I am still sick badly for another week anyway. imagine if I am still in the camp, I’d be worst.

nevertheless, the camp is really fun. I began to enjoy it at the 4th day I think, when we started to have group activities and classes. there were about 400 people divided into 4 companies, where each company will have to present their flag, motto, song and all in just 2-3 days! so we rushed late nights to get everything done. even though it was very tiring, but it was really really fun!

and the craziest thing I will have to tell you about is, in that one week time, I got to know about 150 new friends! crazy isn’t it?! on average I get to know 20 people a day! people there are really friendly, they will talk to you automatically. very nice. and the teachers (especially my class teacher they are soooooooooo nice I love them so much T_T) are incredulously funny people. during training they might be very fierce. but when you are doing work, they’d help you and they have endlessly funny stories to tell you about. (in my whole camp there’s only 1 teacher that I don’t really like. I felt like she’s a bit racist actually based on how she talk to me. and her face is on dulan mode 24/7. but only one.)

about the strictness. I can say these camps are really strict. you MUST wear the clothes they provide as long as you get out of the dorm. they don’t care if you have to wear the same shirt for 4 days. you just have to. and guys and girls MUST have a 2meter gap if you’re not doing any activities. which I think is pretty weird. but it’s safe in a way? some horny people love flirting around, well. =/. and, NEVER BE LATE. they might as well just screw your whole dorm for one late person. and even if you are excused to sit down, you can’t sit in your own comfortable way T_T. that seemingly racist teacher told me to sit straight sigh. =(. I actually felt rather forced when she said that– because I was feeling so so so terrible and I really had to lie down and I had to sit up straight. and I pretty much burst out and they took me to the clinic and the not sure if he is a doctor or a nurse said that I am suffering from stress. sigh. how could I have stress when I was actually having fun.

I love my dorm mates. they are all sporting and nice people. and almost every night we would have our own mini party with varieties of junk food. yummy junk food. and you might as well think that mineral water tastes weird, sometimes like coconut right? but when you’re there and you’re looking at the yellowish drinking water sometimes with small tiny residues, mineral water is THE THANG that you’d crave for. but this point couldn’t be fixed as my camp is located right in the middle of no where. it’s very hard to get pure clean water there. =(. the bathing water will make you have terrible chills at first but at the 5th day, you’d just turn on the shower and quickly jump in like as if bathing is heaven; you wouldn’t even notice that the water is cold. occasionally (about once in 2-3 days?) the water supply will be cut and you’d have to bathe using the kolam water, the kolam is pretty green. and uhm, is filled with dead bugs on the surface.  most people could take it, but my skin couldn’t. it was itching every day and I had terrible rash on my body which isn’t even cured by now. =(.

but if you (or your sibling) got picked for NS, and is healthy, I would really recommend you to go. their activities are amazing. I like their character building classes especially. I felt that it really did taught me some stuff. NS is rather beneficial. I am just one odd case because I am weak and my skin is really sensitive. plus I am allergic to many kind of food. =(. like, seafood, caffeine, peanuts. which they have squids occasionally, tea everyday, and peanuts are very famous in malay food. so sometimes out of those many food I can only have one dish to go with my rice, usually vegetable. vegetable and rich ONLY is a torture to me. I don’t like eating most cooked vegetable. just salads.

it might sound contradicting but I really do miss NS. not the cold water and the food I couldn’t eat, but the people and activities (except marching. HATED THAT. I am a puteri lilin if you don’t know). I haven’t actually marched before since I was sick for the whole week, but I came back looking like a malay girl still. =/. MY STUDENT ID PICTURE IS A TOTAL MALAY GIRL T_T. but it’s alright, I shall slowly gain my skin colour back T_T.

by the way, I was back for 2 whole week. =D. sick for the first week and very busy on the second. thus being this late on informing all of you on my come-back. =X. and is this my longest word post? crap. I bet only 5% read everything. =(. boring-nya. shall write another one on what to bring to NS next time for those who are going to NS in the future. even just a week (8 days to be specific!), I learned a lot okay! heh. =P.

at least the whitening shiseido is pretty helpful, I am not as tan now. hahaah. that student ID card, sigh. if you keep bugging me on my blog maybe I’d show. kekeke. but you still can notice my slight tan (at the side of my face) right? look a bit fairer because I played with the aperture and shutter speed coughs =P.