it isn’t a feeling that I am currently having, but it was, some time ago, and I just felt like sharing it. have you ever felt the feeling of being betrayed, mistreated, blamed and treated unfairly? well I had.

those feelings were so bad, they hurt more than when my dear dog died. in other words, they were almost suicidal. and inconsiderate people would not even know. they do their best to make you miserable, hated by others. they would lie, twist words, spread things untrue. of course, I had experienced it both ways; being the victim, and the bad person.

lets talk about being the bad person. I was about 13-14, I would talk about gossips that people tell me to other people just because I wanted to have more topics to talk about at the stage of wanting to have more friends, and that is because I didn’t know how it felt. but soon I came to realize that it isn’t something I should be bothered about. but I wasn’t as bad, because I did not CREATE them untrue fact, I heard them. but I was wrong, one shall never judge. it is normal to dislike somebody, but those who takes them seriously, are real cowards.

some people, in my opinion, people who wanted more attention, would create something new to attract people’s attention with some surreal, selfish story out of jealousy that they might not even know: and the bad part is, people actually believes in them. you might not even know these people whom created them, but they are definitely the devils behind your back. needless to say, everybody assume they are right. when friends tries to back you up, nothing will change because in their tiny black heart, they assume that you went for pity.

to deal with it? easy. just do not care about them. friends come and go, and if your friend doesn’t see the true beauty inside of you. they are just not worthy enough. but on the other hand, for those who are dealing with those situations for the first time, you might consider talking to somebody about it. I was once so angry I wanted to do something really bad, I wanted to expel that person from school. it is possible. once I read from a magazine that some people were accused of being who they are not so horribly, they suicided. and in the book, it’s written that by law, it’s somehow illegal, even if you’re a kid.

I have not dealt with such issues for a very long time, but I heard that in many colleges and companies, problems as such still exist. and if you’re involved, just stay calm and ignore. do not run away from it, but face it. nobody is perfect and people with least humanity would pick on your bad side, and most of the time, exaggerate them.

you know what’s next. PENANG! xD.

*points* my hair is BROWNISH! pfft. so much for dyeing such a light colour. sigh. they said the only way to dye my hair is to BLEACH it.

NO!

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