long emo post ahead.

NS (National Service; those gun holding, marching under the hot sun thing. preparing you for WARRR) is AN ASS. =(. I mean, a pain in the ass for me. it delays everything, college, BIRTHDAY PARTY and all. =(. for the first time in 5 years I might not have a birthday party. why must it be on my 18th birthday. UGH. but hopefully, I’d still celebrate it even if it’s a month late =/.

it’s hard to think of how my number of friends would even decrease significantly. in 3 months many things can happen and I felt that I will lose some most of my friends. and it is hard for me to accept the fact that when I come back I might not see them or even talk to them because they are so engrossed with their new friends at college and might also be very busy with assignments. I would only be annoying them then. =(. and I’d know nothing about their problems and all and they might find it hard to tell me because I have no idea on what have been going on T_T.

and even so, being my usual cocky self I would be nice to you, but I won’t express myself and actually be friends with you at first. unless there’s a connection or something. making friends randomly is ALWAYS dangerous, even friends friend, but it just seems a little better. sigh. how am I going to survive.

thinking of how some people steal even pentene, I guess I will need to store the collection of shampoos from hotels and maybe keep it in a mineral bottle bottle. and as for undergarments, going to pasar malam to buy some would be sufficient. same goes for towels. SIGH. and I have real bad menstrual cramps during menstrual period, will they even let me rest in the room for a maximum of 3 days. and can I really live without facial for 3 months (I do it monthly, that’s why my skin seems OK you see. =/)

I really hope I’d meet some nice people. I’ve never understood why some people could steal and never feel bad. even if I accidentally did something wrong, I’d feel bad for the rest of my life. at least a few months/years. until I become older and start forgetting the long ago stuff. ugh.

and it being dirty is really disgusting me like mad already.

actually, I could terminate it. I have obvious symptoms of anemia. I faint when I am feeling to hot. I mean, you know what I mean right! and also when I stand at a spot for too long. and my allergies to caffeine. and and and my super sensitive skin that gets irritated with dirty environment which would lead to half-a-year-also-dunno-can-recover-a-not rashes.

what if somebody wants to steal my Vitamin E pills? oh noes. T_T.

and I have no idea why am I so random nowadays, but I am drinking korean tea right now and it’s so yummy you should love korean wheat tea too. good day. =). after all the emoness and I am telling you to have a good day. oh I AM weird. kekeke. =X.

and it was POP DAY yesterday! update more about it later. I am actually saving all my events and is keeping it in drafts so I can post them when I am in NS. =D. see, I am so nice kan? teehee.

I am going to NS in exactly 1 week. T_T. ugh.

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