maybe it WOULDN’T be THAT bad. my cousin who recently came back from NS came over and gave some information and some photo’s of a very neat and new looking dorm which don’t actually look that bad.

and then, stupid Mr.Lam, who went NS, he scared me by telling me that there are many stories and all so now I am a bit scared I feel even more like a girl than I ever do due to my extreme gutless self now. and I actually went to the temple to get a “fu” for protection this morning which resulted to me being late to my award ceremony. crap. anyway, I am very very tired.

I really don’t want to go. =/. I miss all of you..

just to name a few other than my family, Sandra Lee (and Wong), Yernny, Jin, Car, Darren, Zhong, Yao, Jason, John, Yee Jin, Bun, Jeremy, Zlwin, Simon (So AND Kong)….. okay, maybe I do have too many friends sometimes. but you all are so dear to me I feel like I want to cry knowing that I have to stop contacting you all for so long. SIGH.

and the number 1 thing I miss on my list ; MY COMPUTER. how am I suppose to live. I will someway right? =(.

bye people bye.

my feelings now : I don’t want to leave because I know I’d miss everybody so bad and I might even cry due to loneliness. it feels like I am lost without money and a phone. I just.. worry that I will get in trouble and I just get so scared my eyes starts to tear. >_<”. sigh.

BYEEEEEEE. not tomorrow actually. more like, in a few hours. less than 7 hours. and I haven’t even sleep. darn!

I finally got the pictures from Natalie and Vivien! so here’s my version with supposingly the same pictures but lesser from both of them.

they were ultimately AWESOME. I’ve not been to any (good)concerts because my mom have always been telling me what a waste of money it is to go watch idols which are to her, ordinary people too. well it might be different for her since she used to work with with some popular actors then on their closets and all. having famous actors calling her out for drinks as a normal friend was a common thing to her. so she have never understood why I IDOLIZE certain people so crazily. hmm. actually I wonder why too. =X. anyways, let’s begin =D!

by the way, this will be an incredulously long post so I will hide most of it under the link “read more”. 28 pictures will lag your comp really. kekeke.

I went with GinnyVeryPretty, NatalieKyute and Viwon. okay those names are so last minute. Natalie likes Kyu Hyun and Vivien, Siwon. I’m actually Siwon too but I am now very much into everybody T_T.

thank you Ginny again for the tickets! <3. saranghae!

our view of the stage. it’s pretty near. but not near enough to see their face clearly lah. but not bad haha.

one more for a clearer view!

I’m going to introduce most of my favourite bandmates so if you want to see them then click on the link below!

(more…)

long emo post ahead.

NS (National Service; those gun holding, marching under the hot sun thing. preparing you for WARRR) is AN ASS. =(. I mean, a pain in the ass for me. it delays everything, college, BIRTHDAY PARTY and all. =(. for the first time in 5 years I might not have a birthday party. why must it be on my 18th birthday. UGH. but hopefully, I’d still celebrate it even if it’s a month late =/.

it’s hard to think of how my number of friends would even decrease significantly. in 3 months many things can happen and I felt that I will lose some most of my friends. and it is hard for me to accept the fact that when I come back I might not see them or even talk to them because they are so engrossed with their new friends at college and might also be very busy with assignments. I would only be annoying them then. =(. and I’d know nothing about their problems and all and they might find it hard to tell me because I have no idea on what have been going on T_T.

and even so, being my usual cocky self I would be nice to you, but I won’t express myself and actually be friends with you at first. unless there’s a connection or something. making friends randomly is ALWAYS dangerous, even friends friend, but it just seems a little better. sigh. how am I going to survive.

thinking of how some people steal even pentene, I guess I will need to store the collection of shampoos from hotels and maybe keep it in a mineral bottle bottle. and as for undergarments, going to pasar malam to buy some would be sufficient. same goes for towels. SIGH. and I have real bad menstrual cramps during menstrual period, will they even let me rest in the room for a maximum of 3 days. and can I really live without facial for 3 months (I do it monthly, that’s why my skin seems OK you see. =/)

I really hope I’d meet some nice people. I’ve never understood why some people could steal and never feel bad. even if I accidentally did something wrong, I’d feel bad for the rest of my life. at least a few months/years. until I become older and start forgetting the long ago stuff. ugh.

and it being dirty is really disgusting me like mad already.

actually, I could terminate it. I have obvious symptoms of anemia. I faint when I am feeling to hot. I mean, you know what I mean right! and also when I stand at a spot for too long. and my allergies to caffeine. and and and my super sensitive skin that gets irritated with dirty environment which would lead to half-a-year-also-dunno-can-recover-a-not rashes.

what if somebody wants to steal my Vitamin E pills? oh noes. T_T.

and I have no idea why am I so random nowadays, but I am drinking korean tea right now and it’s so yummy you should love korean wheat tea too. good day. =). after all the emoness and I am telling you to have a good day. oh I AM weird. kekeke. =X.

and it was POP DAY yesterday! update more about it later. I am actually saving all my events and is keeping it in drafts so I can post them when I am in NS. =D. see, I am so nice kan? teehee.

I am going to NS in exactly 1 week. T_T. ugh.

I’ve always thought that the society nowadays are filled with fake, lazy, self-centered people. but really, yesterday I met somebody that really changed my mind about that. I was rushing from Pavilion over to Bukit Jalil for Suju’s concert depending on our not so efficient but still okay public transport. and the weather is so bad I was sweating like a.. pig? don’t know la. anyway, in the tube/train/lrt, there’s this uncle looking about 50 years old, he stood up and asked me to sit down @@. I wonder if it’s because I was wearing high heels or because he is afraid some people will take advantage of me since I was wearing a dress, but he just ORDERED me to sit when I told him it’s okay I could stand.

I thought most people will just you know, stand around and pretend nothing happen even though some girl in front of them probably is getting pick-pocketed because it’s none of their business and they don’t want to get in trouble. I don’t always take public transport for this reason anyways, it is really dangerous in my opinion.

and it’s weird how I was so free and suddenly so busy. I am visiting a different college almost everyday scouting for something good. and I have to make my decision quick, which brings tonnes of headaches T_T. what should I do really. =/.

and some sneak peeks from yesterday =D. I brought my DSLR but I was TOLD to remove my camera batteries while my friends managed to sneak in their camera T_T. what lah. my DSLR won’t do them harm I am a very civilized person =D.

I went with Ginny, Vivien and Natalie. it’s my first time actually hanging out with them (other than Ginny). was invited to fill in Akiraceo’s spot, said Ginny. so I shall really thank him for not coming  kekeke and thanks to him too I flushed so hot when I saw all the hot guys. T_T. seriously I couldn’t handle good looking guys! I go, crazy a little. HAH. typical girl, is that what I heard? kekeke. but I couldn’t agree more! HAHA!

and Natalie is so cute, she gets super hyped up when MR. KYU comes out or around hahaha. he IS very hot I am telling you =P. and Vivien and I just drool whenever Siwon is near T___T. he is Edward Cullen with Jacob’s body. and better.

from being Siwon’s fan, I am now SUDDENLY a Kyu Hyun’s  fan suddenly too, and Ryeo Wook. they are all so beautiful T___T. how can they be so perfect. I don’t believe it’s plastic. pfft. it’s too natural and beautiful hehe.

and I can’t really do hairbands. ugh. T_T. I look weird mm. =X. the theme yesterday was white clothes with blue ribbon too as I know. ahhaha. hence the blue ribbon on my head! =D.

one question, do I really look older than all of them? =/.

again, THANK YOU GINNY! <3.

(and now I need to steal pictures from all three of them since THEIR camera’s was successfully smuggled in!)

just a little introduction, this is Kyu Hyun. he looks much more prince charming in reality. maybe not so photogenic but he is very very charming. the most good looking guy in Suju. <3. I am SERIOUS.

and that picture beside is when he got into an accident. but lucky that he is saved from that very dangerous situation if not I’d be weeping. =/. he is such a talented person. with such good looks!

and this, is of course SIWON! =D=D=D=D. I fell in love with him when I watched this drama with him inside. mm. very fair and those eyes. T____T. super duper manly. sorry for my dumtasticness. I am just very very engrossed with all those K-pop right now. you know, those after concert hypeness. most people have it =D!

AND RYEO WOOK! still, not many people like him but after starring at him upclose, I concluded that he is physically perfect. perfect skin, perfect features, perfect teeth. maybe not big size enough but he is still perfect. <3.

but Nichkhun is STILL the best. he’s from 2PM, even though I heard 50k fans left the fanclub, but I’ll still love him. he is always the best kekekekekeke. (and I’ve heard how nice he is to people around, he is very much not bossy or proud of himself  and all! how can there be such a wonderful person? mmm. if I am a famous and handsome person, I was thinking I’d be pretty proud and cocky. heh.)

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okay, since I have my camera with me, I’m not bored anymore. <3. that is why everybody should camwhore too, you don’t have to post it =D. it could be just for.. SELF VIEW. why not?!

(I shall continue my song)
when you’re bored and you know it and you really want to SHOW it,
so when you’re bored and you know it just camwhore!

it should be my first (or second, but I don’t remember anymore) post with so many pictures of myself without make up. and in PAJAMAS. I don’t usually even webcam when I am in PJs. but you won’t see those funny words on my pajama if I camwhore anyway =D.

*LOADS OF SCARY PICTURES AHEAD”

did I mention, I cut my hair and I have shorter bangs?

good thing about these long bangs are you won’t get caught closing your eyes. or maybe just not so obviously when you do. (but now I am crazily trained to open my eyes on flash lights so NO PROB! =X.)

especially to avoid situations like THESE. check out who is closing her eyes. with short hideous bangs. I used to look pretty cute OKAYY! but only when I am opening my eyes =D.

and since I smile so much on most of the pictures I posted and the worst I could go was just the neutral face. let me show you my GARANG face!

or should I call it the BO SONG/SERIOUS/whatever you call it face.

and if I were to use it in emotion : =.=” / … / ¬.¬

the famous (maybe not so famous, YET.) Nichkhun smirk! my newest idol, he is placed at the top of my list now. he is a total prince charming <3. and to get you into him, or if you’re a guy, just so you’d turn gay for him, I shall post his cutest expressions-on-star-king-youtube-video. <3.

or click here to watch. it is 100% ADORABLE.

AREN’T THEY JUST ADORABLE? by the way, Nichkhun’s Thai-Chinese. =D.

trying yo imitate those cute korean effects HAHAHA.

the => expression.

and my favourite >=(! expression hahahaha.

I actually does all sort of animated expressions while talking in real life. just to some people. haha. I guess there’s where some people find me entertaining, by watching me being ugly looking animated. heh.

it’s late (1.10AM), ok bai =D!

PS : actually I find my hair rather troublesome. =X. it kept falling onto my face. ugh.

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couldn’t sleep couldn’t think couldn’t talk. that was yesterday.

a few hours ago, about 1130, the teacher was giving our results halfway through. about 2 more pages till mine could be revealed and suddenly some other teacher came in and said “NOO DON’T GIVE FIRST”. which simultaneously added more heart pumps inside of me.

so yeah, the teachers were giving those straight A students their results, those 8-11A students. and I was thinking, since I am not called, my highest next would be 7. =/. but would I be THAT lucky? I am guessing I’d get around 3-4. at  most 5.

BUT WHO KNEW.when I saw my results I was shaking a little, and I started crying. while smiling. this had not happen since I got my UPSR results when my mom was nagging at how dumb and how many FAIL’s I’d get when I got 4/5A’s. =D! it might not be very good but it is enough for me.

AND WHO KNEW, I failed my add maths at the mark of 38 during trials and I ACTUALLY GOT AN A IN IT FOR SPM. OMGOMGOMGOMG. unbelievable. T_T. I want to act like a bimbo as of today saying the most OMG in my life. AND, the next OMG is for..HISTORY. *faints*. I don’t know how too. perhaps my hard work really does pay off xD.

there’s still something bad about it. I am supposed to be enrolling at the college of my choice doing graphics TODAY, RIGHT NOW (at least that’s what my mom told me). but, =/. my parents told me to reconsider, again. which means they are pretty much not happy with my choice mm. I have no idea why art’s are classified into the field for dumb people for parents. sigh. but I LIKE! AND THEY MAKE GOOD MONEY TOO. if you’re good that is =D!

PLUS, Malaysians are ALL so busybody kekeke (including me!) I FULLY CHARGED my phone when I left for school and I came back with 5% battery left. CHIO. plenty of calls and smses. xD. thanks for all who wished me!

and how could I not take my camera to such an important event?

MY CLASS TEACHER! <3. love her. she’s the nicest teacher. and lucky me, she is was MY class teacher. MINEEE. =D.

and goodness, lucky the camera is with me all the time, my crying picture isn’t taken!

and the most good looking guy (IMO) in my school hah! but too bad he doesn’t know how to smile hehe. he looks like Edison Chen when he have longer hair. =X.

saddening that many of them left when I finally finished sobbing =X. but it’s still a great day!

as for my results,

HAPPY COUNTING! =D.

first time in my life I felt so.. so.. honorable? err, proud? mmm.. GREAT!

lesson learned today : pictures suck after you’ve cried. =(.

AHHHHHHHH…… cannot sleep tonight. hehe.