so I am really writing about this =O. today in school Sandra popped out the few interesting topics for blogposts and this one is actually what I am facing right now. although I posted this around 2 years ago but people change right? (okay actually I feel almost the same).

I am feeling ridiculous. I felt like I am a piece of squashed cake. a slug. a lazy worm hoping to be a book worm. I slept really early yesterday because I was feeling a little too weary and thought I could wake up the next morning to study a little. but I was slouching the whole morning. my lower tummy didn’t feel right. like somebody had just squeezed lemons on the inside of my tummy. it is definitely caused by menstruation; I am sure. not to worry it is nothing excruciating but it is just so bothering. and more to that, I felt extremely sensitive too. although I am born sensitive but during PMS, the sensitive thoughts are really negative. for example thoughts like ” am I that bothersome? “, “why am I so dumb.” and “I am so slow.” just fills up my tiny brain in my large head. I am not like this usually, just when it is near or when it IS the time of the month. and there are quite a few times I felt completely normal. mm.

other than that, I actually feel depressed. depressed for no reason. actually, it is nothing big yet it is not completely nothing. it is just like my brain works according to the weather or something. I kept thinking back about the past. the mistakes that could be forgiven and still think it is horrible. the mistakes people did that I couldn’t find myself to really forgive yet together with those which I’ve forgiven. they are stupid memories but at the same time they are just too unforgettable.

and to the not-so-serious part. I feel fat. extra fat. very fat. I will eventually gain weight whenever it is THE TIME. and my skin will turn dull and pale; like a sick person (although I am already quite sick). not to mention that pimples will pop out of no where filling up every oily pore I have. guys often think that PMS is an excuse to everything for girls. but I can tell you that.. do not mess with a girl when she’s in the PMS-mode. it will sometimes be brutal too. as I’ve heard.

HA HA HA. (so..) I AM THE QUEEN OF THE WORLD!

just joking I haven experienced that level of PMS-ing yet. =D.

actually I hate writing an all-text post. because in my opinion it is really boring to read something long without pictures on the bright LCD screen.

my sister’s new palm sized bunny in China. (actually what’s hers is mine. and what’s mine? IS MINE TOO! =D. jkjk). oh my. this makes me smile. =D.

not only does it makes me smile, it melts me. her name is Vivi because my sister said it peed on her shirt for many times. saw her on webcam the other time and she SO DARN CUTEEEEE.

OH MY GOODNESS. T___T beyond beautiful. anyway, don’t give me a bunny for my birthday okay. I don’t want to get peed on. =X.

pictures stolen from my sis’s blog. =D.

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