will definitely blog tomorrow. because I must share my most fearful moments with you. for your information, we will be dissecting a frog, a mice, a fish, a chicken and an insect. dissecting the fish and chicken sounds really really fine to me. the insect will be quite scary, but as long as it’s legs are not moving anymore I guess that’ll be fine too. frogs.. ugh. >_<”. I found the visualized picture of it online. and it is still YUCK. well, of course it’s all animated without blood and stuff, but STILL! thinking of how it really looks makes me sick! to see the picture, click here. and next, MICE?? I dare not think about it. seriously. HOW CAN WE DISSECT SUCH A CUTE THING?

do you see what I mean?! these poor little mice have feelings too! I friggin’ know it that I am totally not suitable to be a doctor, and I don’t want to friggin’ see the poor little mice get killed. ugh. why cant we kill a rat instead, those which goes around the rubbish bin, although it’s still sick. not the cute, white little furball. I am totally panicking. I feel my legs getting numb everytime I think about it. and that horrible day which I am totally not looking forward to comes. that miserable day where I have to see a cute, adorable furry little white mice getting pinned up on the hands and legs, getting cut on the stomach all the way and see it’s heart still thumping. I friggin’ hate this feeling. at least the pass year students have to only cute the frog. and whats even better is that a group of 3 people is only killing 1 frog. whereas for my year, almost each person have an animal to cut. I am cutting the fish. I AM only CUTTING THE FISH, I DON’T CARE.

and the sad news is, I am afraid that I won’t have pictures of the dissection of the frog and the mice. because even now, just thinking of it I feel that my head is swelling and getting a little numb, too. I am really, really scared. really, really, I am. I have no idea why so many cruel people are so looking forward to dissecting the mice and the frog, just because they’re dissecting it alive, looking at it’s heart still beating. UGHH.

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and now, something more jolly. you know Secret Recipe? *if you’re not in Malaysia, even if you know secret recipe, forget it.*

you know about their this month’s new cake?

called

DURIAN CHEESE?

it just came out like 1 or 2 weeks ago, 1 I think. it’s a seasonal cake. and it is..

d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s.

I am so not kidding. it is a MUST TRY.

to durian lovers, I GUARANTEE that you’ll love it. believe me, just give it a try, it’s only RM6.50!

I hope it won’t turn out as bad as I think it would tomorrow. =/

although I’m 1 day late to post this up. what am I to do when I came back late at night yesterday not having any time at all. =D.

actually, I quite like our country’s culture and stuff like that. but it isn’t really the same since racism started.

I am really thankful that our country is a merdeka country, and I really am happy that we can live in this country with multi races.

BUT. I cannot take the racism here, seriously. ever heard ” kamu orang cina balik China lah! “? you can say that I’m really really daring to post this up, but it’s the truth from what I’ve experienced. it’s not a weird thing that what they call the bumi putrans gets the benefit to everything. but who are the bumi putrans? the ones that was living in Malaysia before anybody migrated here. they call Chinese and Indians as immigrants because Indonesians set foot here first. but to be frank, through history, I thought that some ang moh set foot here first? well, that one is not really something for me to dig out because there is no proof.

BUT. is it right that we are called “immigrants” when we, Chinese and Indians are both too born in Malaysia? this racism issue, often happens in schools like mine. and I really cannot take it. can we choose to be born as what we are? NO. saying that we are all equally treated, but yet we are getting treated badly by some really racist students in school. sigh, just hope that this matter will get better. and I also hope that somebody out there than CAN do something about it WILL do something about it.

well to the bright side, getting to know so much about the other races is really interesting and especially our Manglish, is something I thought is really cute. =3. thank you, all the ones that helped to set our country free and that’s the reason why we are all still standing here, having a much better life.

Happy 51st Merdeka Day.

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anybody watch this astro chinese international beauty pageant thingy? they have that quote ” yan lei ngo yun mei “.  I have no idea why they use this funny quote because in translation, it means ” because of you I’m perfect “. no intentions of teasing this show, but the quote kinda mean ” because you are all ugly, that’s why I’m perfect “. =O. hahahahahhahahaha.

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my cousin nephew is sooooo cuteeee!

my cousin’s son, so he’s my cousin nephew, right? right???and I’m not old! I have another cousin nephew which is like 10 and a cousin which is around 4-5. =D. this is called, big family tree. ahhaa. once there was a person who told me that babies are the most natural shooting model. and you just gotta believe it! ^__^v.

his name is Joshua! (counts the number of Joshua’s I know…..6! @@” this name is really popular eh. I don’t hope so many people’s name is Jamie, especially guys. haha.)

and he imitates what other people does, really!

how can some people people say ” I hate children ” ?! it totally is not possible =P.

damn kawaii xD

seriously, I don’t know what this is. @@”. cute then can la =D.

my very pretty cousin whom just came back from UK, more like just came back from Japan right? haha.

xD.

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and on the dark side.

I really wonder, are friends somebody who we want to gain happiness from, or are they just some people who wants to gain materialistic profit from. selfish, that’s what most people are. I don’t like it when friends turn to another side when I’m talking, nor them not encouraging me when I’m down. instead, most of them will just turn back and talk bad about the person they acknowledge as a friend. we humans are really just humans. we couldn’t always say the right thing. we tend to sometimes say things that we shouldn’t and don’t know it ourselves. I am not saying this because I’ve done something wrong, but it is just that I felt, most of the people around don’t care about other people’s feelings. sometimes, considering about another person’s feelings are rather important. like when somebody told you she/he is down, how can you just ignore that person and let ‘em fret? why not considering of giving ‘em the courage to stand up again? * leave ‘em alone, thats the best way “, IS that really the best way? ever considered a person being alone often think of stupid stuffs and hence, the situation gets worst? what will one be without friends? and I can’t never hide, that I can’t cope with most around me. I just need to find my own kind. argh, I have no idea what am I writing about. haha.